Senior Year...Wait, Seriously?!

18 days and counting until I start my senior year of college. Now I know it sounds all cheesy, but I'm not kidding, the time has flown by. As much complaining as I've done about never-ending classes, papers, and sleepless nights, I'm already nostalgic for those "golden years of college". This is mostly due to the fact that, though I have yet to start this last year, I am faced with the obnoxiously haunting question:

"So what do you want to do with the rest of your life?"

Ah, the joy I feel when asked this. My typical go-to answer has been, until now, as follows:

"Well, I would like to be a book editor who specializes in historical fiction."

Simple. Clear. Focused. This ambitious answer blew away the high school crowd, most of whom were still deliberating majors. My goals were perfectly set: good grades, college, newspaper editor, internship, more good grades, graduate early.

But then, just when I was getting content with my state of blissful naivety- BAM! A 40-ton truck called awareness smacked me head over feet. My perfect plan ended there.

So here I am, frantically raking through my past answers, looking for solutions to particulars like-

Do I go to grad school or straight to a job?

Where do I move, since California holds slim to none jobs in my market?

Will I even get a decent job in such a competitive field?

What in the world was I thinking???

For a chronic planner like myself, this state of the unknown pretty much drives me insane.

But, God...I love those two words. Over and over in my life, I've been catapulted into the unknown of life, forced to rely on His strength because mine is useless in those times. Impossible obstacles present themselves, BUT GOD has provided. And He has shown me to accept this passage:

"So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself."- Matthew 6:34

So I will not worry. I will revel in this final year in an amazing Christian atmosphere, pursuing the majors and spending time with people I love. I will enjoy each day for it's opportunity to see what God has in store for me. And knowing Him, it will turn out even better than I could have imagined.